The document reflects on the author's experience of taking an extended break from work to reevaluate their relationship with design, inspired by turning 40 and questioning the significance of their career. During this period, they explored themes of beauty, depth, and form in design, while grappling with societal pressures and personal doubts about the profession. Ultimately, the author emphasizes the importance of crafting meaningful, aesthetically pleasing work that transcends mere functionality.